Be still

Can you remember the last time you had a troubling situation? A stomach-wrenching, heart-sinking situation? 

The last memorable one for me was when I was diagnosed with cancer in 2012. For weeks straight, it was a never-ending nightmare. Overwhelming sickness, fear of what was going to happen. But I also remember the day that all changed. 

The day I received the results from my bone marrow biopsy was during my family's vacation. No one was home, so I went alone. I was sitting in the waiting room, moments from tears and tired of all the elders around me staring at me because I was so young. Then the door to the waiting room opens, and my mom's best friend walks in. A split second of relief settled in my lungs.  Moments later, we were called into the exam room to wait for what seemed like an eternity. I was pacing. I was crying. Pacing, crying, pacing, crying. 

"Psalm 46:10," my mom's friend says to me.

"What?"

"Psalm 46:10. 'Be still, and know that I am God.' That is all you need. This isn't up to you. Say it. Say it over and over."

"Be still, and know that I am God. Be still, and know that I am God. Be still, and know that I am God. Be still, and know that I am God." Over and over. Like a miracle, the cloud lifted over my heart and much of my worry evaporated. I was still scared, mind you, but I realized that it was out of my hands. No matter what happened that day it would work itself out. 

Fast forward to this week: workplace troubles. I do not like confrontation, and I was kind of pushed into a situation. Do you know how every troubling moment in your life seems like the worst one? Well, maybe not the worst, but the one that will be the hardest to endure? I do sometimes. Obviously, I have been through worse, but it is still hard to see over the storm clouds. I hear the bible verse in the back of my mind, but sometimes I don't give it up to God when I should. I am working on that!

There are many verses that offer God's love and comfort. I suggest you find your go-to verse in those difficult moments. Give it up to Him and know that He will get you through. No matter what happens, God is there. 

Pilot

Where do I start? 

I used to love to write. As a child, I never kept a diary. I thought writing your feelings to a book was pointless. I tried once. 

'Dear Diary, 

          You are a piece of paper. What do you care about my feelings?'

Two sentences. Waste of a book. 

I did enjoy writing though, honestly. In eighth grade, my class was to write a short story about learning a lesson, or something. I don't remember the topic, but I do remember sitting at the computer for hours. I pulled out all the stops: favorite names as characters, a hint of violence, different points of views (just like the real authors would do). For the life of me, I cannot tell you what the story was about, but I can tell you that I received an A. During high school, I attempted to write a full length story many times without success. I went to college for Biology and slowly gave up on my dreams of writing the next hit thriller. 

Ten years after my first writing experience, I finally feel that I have something to write about. A lot of things have happened in the passed decade that have changed me. By no means am I saying that my story is a thriller, or anything that I will write could be anything close. But it will be real, and it will be raw. A friend once told me that I am brutally honest. I like to think of that character trait as a gift. 

I want to start out my blog by doing a 30 writing challenge to get my feet wet. It will probably be very silly and very cheesy, but I hope you enjoy! And, if anyone who stumbles upon this blog has any suggestions about what to write, please let me know!

Thank you for stopping by :)